An ahhh....ha moment :)

When I attended Son-Rise Start Up 19 months ago I wrote down in class 5 things that I wanted for Hayden.  When I wrote this list I had no doubt in my mind that Hayden would achieve these goals.  I honestly forgot about this list until I attended Optimal Self Trust at the Option Institute and was looking through the notebook I have used for all my classes at Son-Rise / Option Institute.  As I sat and read the list it took my breath away.

AHH....HAAAAA!!!!!! :) :) :)  Hayden was achieving that list and so much more!!!!

Here is the list of 5 things I wanted for Hayden at Son-Rise Start-Up August 2011:

1) I wish for Hayden to speak 3-4 words consistently (at the time he was speaking 1-2 words to get needs met)

2) I would like for Hayden to sleep past 5:30 am.  Hayden now sleeps a solid 10-11 hours a night and sleeps until 7:00 am.

3) I would like Hayden to develop self soothing skills.  We have come so far with tantruming.  Hayden now understands that using language is so much more powerful.

4) I want Hayden to be able to play games with us.  Hayden's favorite game to play with us is tag.  He also greatly enjoys all the fabulous cars games we have made for him in the playroom.

5) I want Hayden to be healthy.  Wow, what a journey this has been to help my little man heal his body.  I look at him now and am amazed.  Hayden has full cheeks, sparkle in his eyes, good coloring, and awesome hair.  Hayden has not been sick in over a year :)

My sweet, loving, hard working, handsome, intelligent little man.  I am beyond proud of you Hayden!!!

Why am I Married???

Today in The Optimal Self Trust program at the Option Institute Bears asked a question to all of us that made me really think.  Well, all of his questions really make me think but this one in particular I wrote down and decided that I wanted to write out an answer for.  The question was, "Why am I am Married?"

My initial response to myself in class was well because I am ;)  I actually laughed out loud a bit when I thought this.  I was thinking "Wow, now that is a vague non-answer to the question."  I made a conscious decision at that point that I wanted to explore this question and put some thought into it.

What a great question to ask!  Why am I married??????

I feel that what Brandon and I have is a deep commitment that we made to one another.  He is my best friend.  I have complete and total faith and trust in Brandon.  I can tell him anything and he does not judge me.  We cry together, we laugh together, and we even yell at one another from time to time (well....I am usually the yeller).  Brandon loves me when I choose to not love myself.  He encourages me and believes in me.  I love the way he smirks and gets this cheesy grin on his face.  I love his shoulders, blue eyes, and bubble butt.  I love the secureness I feel in his arms.

I think of all the incredible events we have done together.  We went to my senior prom together.  We celebrated my high school and college graduations together.  He was there when I took my board exams and started my first adult job.  We purchased our first home together.  We were each others first room mates.  We lost a child together.  We have two beautiful children together.  We have been through illnesses and injuries.  Brandon and I have been together.  It amazes me what we can and have accomplished together.

Bottom line I am married because I choose to be :)

Why are you married????