I want you to know what an amazing gift you are. You bring so much joy and excitement to my life. You have taught me more about myself and life in the four years you have been a part of me that I have learned in my entire life.
You have taught me patience. You have taught me to celebrate and enjoy the little things that life has to offer. YOu have taught me to accept myself for who I am and to love myself.
I embrace every moment that we have together good or bad. I hold you tight and squeeze laughter out of you. This has to be on of favorite things in life. In that moment it is just us smiling, laughing, and enjoy the simple joy of being together.
You having autism has never and will never be viewed as a negative in my eyes. You be you has transformed our lives and made us a happier, stronger family.
I love you for you. I accept you for you. I never want to change you and make you someone you are not. I don't want a cookie cutter child.
I love the way you smile. I love the way to skip and jump. I love watching you swim and splash in delight. I love the pictures that you paint me. I always laugh and enjoy your randomness. Even when you run into the middle of the street and take a poop. Ahhh, how you have provided me with a great sense of humor.
I love what a good big brother you are to Ruby. It is truly amazing to watch you interact with one another. You love Ruby with all your heart. The two of you connect on an amazing level. I see the light in your eye when you say her name with excitement in the mornings. One of the first things you do in the morning is run in her room, turn her lights on and shout, "Ruby" with delight.
You have touched so many peoples life. You force as all to look outside the box and see the world with new eyes. I have a new appreciation for you blowing raspberries on my belly and jiggling the jiggly skin on my stomach (by the way you made it that way). I now view you playing with my stomach as a way to interact with you and be one with you.
I wish for you a life full of happiness and love. That you continue to be the sweet, loving, happy little boy that you are. There endless possibilities to all that you can achieve in this world. I love you will all that I can love you with and more.
xoxo,
Mommy
Brandi,
ReplyDeleteAs I sit here with tears in my eyes, I just want to tell you that it is my belief that God places special children with special parents. In Haydens case, I think God "knocked it outta the park"! You are such a good mommy to that precious little boy. You are designed to be his perfect mommy, and THAT you are! Stay encouraged, stay strong. I know there are "trying times" with autism, but these children are really God's blessings, and from this letter you have written, you clearly understand that!! ~Logan